Time

Time is preious to everyone,even myself.
Time helps me a lot.
Time gradually let forget her.

Tml is labour day.Nothing to do....
Yesterday went out to have fun.Watch comdey movie
(Harold And Kumar Escape From Guantanamo Bay-M18),quite funny i can say.LOL someone laugh so loudly to release stress.After that,eating in Fish&C.O. i dun noe what resturant.They serve quite big potion.The drink is very special that they mixed alot things.Overall i give 7/10 for the restuarant.

Today class very boring lucky my english improved and no need to have extra for english.I dread of that !!After that,I go for my gems.Today's topic is speed dating.I was omg...It was a procedure,every girl and guy sit in 2 rows facing each other.We have 3 mins conversation.Then keep changing partners.lol I was like getting out of this scene.The only thing that I diam diam.I dun give a damn.Overall i can say they are not bad as i thought,they quite polite and kind.All i know is year3 and mostly from DBA.Too bad cannot attract me...

Tiring and nothing to do

Opening up my link doesn't mean to celebrate it.I just wan to keep as low profile only.
***To my sister if you breath anything out about here.U gonna to noe how crazy i am if i find out.To be simple,just keep mom that all.
Panting and panting through out.Near to faint.Slowly closed my eyes to have a rest.Dun noe why I having difficulties in my body.I felt like my body starting to eject me any sooner.Gonna to start going for my dancesport lesson soon.Gonna to learn Samba dance that is like ghost dift everywhere.Not easy to learn...Best thing to heal is occupy myself with everything.Keep yourself busy no matter.Worst thing is hard to keep busy for 24/7.If can i gonna faint or changed to monster.Now i adapt the 4 hours sleeping per day.Very short but free time stare in the ceiling and spare a thought in the air.

Going Crazy after one whole day

Yesterday (25 april) having one practical for 3 hours from 9am to 12 pm. Went home straight as nothing to do.Met Pit and Jervine at the mrt and plan to go for jacky chan movie.The movie was short and not good.Too story is simple and not interesting much.There is one good point is that the scenery is very nice.Ernest and shiyun and chin seng came for the movie too.

After the movie,I went to meet Jianlin while the rest in Toy R Shop.Eat soul garden.Meat meat meat and clam clam clam all the way.The boss stunned,haha we eat they broke...Good news that i never any much weight.L0LAfter eating too much food,we played some pool and bowling.Look at the time omg is 12 am plus.No train to catch some more at city hall.Lucky got night bus. WTF 75 stops to reach my house there.Nvm as long as there reach my house can liao.The journey is very long and i did not take a nap.I saw many thing that never see before on the jounery.Some very odd while some very special..Reached home by 3am.omg still alert and not tired.Force to sleep.Easy to say hard to do.Close my eyes either nightmare or thinking of her.Simply can't get out of it.Jailed in the cage,like heart jailed in the rib cage.

Everything has changed

Everything has changed about me.I can say it had a big change.From a cheerful guy to a quiet guy.I now unable to get the true feelings of feeling.I cannot take jokes mean I won't be able to laugh as before.It is tiring and i could not pretend nothing happen and it occurred me every moments.Got a nightmare dream last night.I woke up out of sudden with sweating all on myself.The dream is neither about ghost nor scary monster preying on me.The dream shows about the world i stepping in.


Yesterday went to eat some food outside and accompany meow meow to buy her things.Gothic things never get off her minds.She quite over addicted liao. It was very tiring for me,maybe due to lack of sleep.Now i only sleep about 4 hours or less per days.That is the reason i very easily fall asleep in between lessons.Soon i got sick easily.Early stage (Flu).

Ytd is special to me but counted no more as it was over.I intend to bring her to flyer to see nice view at night.Night view is better cause u won't get to see many buildings as it shows beautiful lights.After that,I prepared some candles lights with love to surprise her.I think any girl will very much with this effort.Too bad things wasted and it cannot be used...Guys dun think my ideas joking...Hey any guys need help in relationship about creating romance.Helping means give ideas but not advice as i dare not confirm.

Depression increased !!

Ytd i went to celebrate my friend,JC 's birthday.I was like no patient and freaking depression...People late by 2 hours !! Me and wei xin when to take a stroll in suntec city and went to a book store.There is a fucking jeus christan perster me.He keep saying the book for improvement won't help me and only Jeus only can help me.
To me,Jeus Sux to the end !! That my rules !!Jeus Sux Jeus Sux Jeus Rapiest Jeus horny god Jeus Ass in people pain.

Forget about it.Dinner jusy eat Beef Curry with rice.
After that,I went home alone left all the couples take their sweet times.

Very depression to see people holding each other every outing.I was very tired liao...Knowing time will heal the pain.But when will the time come !! I was very very tired.Now i need to be alone at all times...

**shiyun and pit,I know u will concern me again,but now i really very depression so can leave me alone for time period.Thanks

I could not tolerate the painful of doing nothing.I sent a message to her sis to find out from her where I am concerning about her.Glad that i recieved the message from her sis.After reading the message,I have changed slightly better.Somehow I felt that my goal is built along the way which i have to do is walk along the path.I wait for her till no end.Sound foolish but kinda true.Be it 10 years 20 years,i can wait for it. Hope one day can change my destiny...

Dangerous Mode

I was in a dangerous mode where i always careless and do not know what to do.Ytd i accidentally drink the dettol where i cleaning my laptop.OMG...the taste was yucks.Went to rinse my mouth quickly.The taste is unforgotten.Hai...I was very tired but i was unable to let go because my heart is like using the metal to tie instead of string to tie.

Wonder that do any scientist invented a medicine that give people happy always?

My key chain is alone and sad !!Wonder got any medcine for it? G0d knows.

I see myself as a failure

I am still unable to forget her.Heart aches whenever thinking of her.It is easy to advice people when they are broken up.However for people who had broken up is not easy to forget the memories easily.My hands can't stop myself from going her blogger(dead),friendster and msn to see whether she online. Love is quite painful experience and lost/break up even painful like almost cannot make it. Thinking of changing/switching email (brokenheartcantheal@hotmail.com) cause my msn always appear her sis online pop up.As she pop up online,I feeling like to ask her how is her sis.

Going to break down any sooner... Hoping to get oversea for holiday but too late as i having school lessons.Pray for ITP to come faster so it can occupy my mind of her.I might resume all my cca to prevent thinking of her.Dancesport ,all crap of japanese club... Worst is that i wished to be alone as i dun wan to see any couples around me.Unable to solve myself,alone is trying avoid those scene which i dun wish to see.Whenever outing,I always keep reject all the outing/events. This is the best for me.

Worst and Best Module

Today went to tutorial almost go in the wrong classroom.T12 and T12A is a combined building so might go wrong classroom.I was like Zzz -_-".The classroom is very small yet it is hiding beside the toilet.I dun know what the module is and i always turned out the earliest in school.That my ultimate rule~ Never be late no matter what.The module is sucked the moment the lecturer introducing the module. "Report Writing and Presentation".This is what i hate of.Report and report and report everyday report.Like going back to secondary school write report.

After my tutorial,i went to food court 3 for lunch.Kinda sux food never improvement.I can be gourmet for food as i know abit which is nice which is bad taste.Some food add to much sugar some too much salt....After finished my food,have to walk up the mountain "Er mei".So long never go there liao.

Step into the class of the Love Relation and something Module.The first time,we do is to play games all the way.It talk about the relationship and bonds.The games we play is trust.I was to partner a gal and i was blindfolded.Lecturer ask me to fall back.My partner have to hold me back.Then it is girl's turn which to blindfold and fall back while i hold her to prevent fall. This is to show that we do trust each other while we fall. If we trust other partner,the partner will help u when u fall without worry.Then we were asked each guy and gal to list out what they wished their dream guy and gal.

To me now,I dare not think of any.Permanent stop thinking relationship with any girls.Sad case...

My Heart Bleeds

My Heart bleeds alot whenever i think of her.I know it is useless to say it out here.
I was to pour out my feeling here.If you not happy,there many things for u do instead coming here.

Should i give up on her?My heart seem unable to give up on her and this is the outcome i afford.So close yet it is so far. This relationship make turn my love into nightmare. I felt that i might not able to take in new love.Define Love to me ?

First day of Yr 2 in SP

The first day in Singapore Polytechnic for year 2

Wake up by my mom thought that she wants me to go out with her.Watching the sky immediately know that it is time for school.Hate school but no choice.As usual,take the journey to school with no mood.Thinking of her while the devil angel asking me to give up on her.Reached Dover like a mountain of ants at there.Squeezing throught the crowd to reach my classroom.I feel that there is nothing special to crowd there.Nvm i reach my classroom like half of my classmates is gone while half of new classmates join in.

Very tired after 3 long lecture lesson.Finally can get to sit in lecture hall.Good news can sleep relax slack but bad news lecture very boring like sleeping affected my studies?

After school,went to T2254 wait for eternlty for my salaries pay.Logoon company still own me alot of money,somemore delay payment very long liao.Actually want to find shibao and hoe kang to accompany.In the end, no one is free so i wan home early.

Chalet

3days 2night for my secondary class chalet.It was very pain to my muscles because my friend and I went to Giant to buy all the drinks part.It was very heavy and we carried all the way to my home(3 days before).Now we have to buy on food.OMG this white sand NTUC is like making me crazy because they don't sell many important things sia. Right now we had very little choices to pick on the food.Hai......


Left me and some of my guys friends,we doing our things surf net play our own games.Some got gf bf,giggle all the way make me remind of her.This time i very sad though we stay together for 2 weeks only.2 weeks only !!! It was very shocked news to say that we better be friends than in relationship.I was crying in pain with silent.Silent crying...





I think it was my fault actually.I was very quiet and not very initiative in dating.According to her saying i keep things in my heart.I am the guy who very hard to express feelings easily like others guy.Somemore i am the guy where i talking very little.Somemore i talked very little.